It is easy to blog and vent... It is even easier to just yell and scream.. but do those really work- with no intent behind the yelling and screaming or the blogging or venting... You can put me in a room and ask me to yell- I will sound like a high pitch 8 year old girl.. or I will cry like a 2 year old... Is that really, a way of releasing anger.. yeah, but I guess the other question is it right for that particular individual! This individual.. NO.. I really hate conflict! I hate to yell and most of all I hate to cry!! These past months have tested me as an individual and you can say I graduated from college 3 years ago(damn I am getting old)... and I didn’t like taking test then- and I sure as hell don’t like them now.. if there is one thing I have learned from the real world - is there are a lot of people that sugar coat things to help others or there are a lot of people out there with a list – sort of like Santa’s, but different... If you aren’t on the list- your done.. if you are on the list- u r the "golden child" It is crazy to think that coming from a the civil war ages and half my grandparents were fighting to eat at a restaurant to now worrying about if you’re on a list... I don’t really see the importance of a list if isn’t helping the situation as a whole or helping a particular environment.. the list just brings more problems and more arguments. "it’s how the world turns."
But I am a firm believer in the serenity prayer! and I cannot control the list! but I can control me! and I know I do not want to be a part of a list or even on a list for that matter. I know if there is a place that wants me to grow- I will.. but once u ask me to change me as a character and a person... You are asking too much!!! and I cannot be a part of something like that. But I can be a part of something which allows me to be me and allows me to develop as an individual!!!!
Gloomy Anxiety People
Live, laugh, love
Tif
