Sitting in my room wondering... When is it enough? Why is it so hard? I just need help knowing that whatever decision I make for now on it is with me and only me on the mind... That is hard for me- I do not like to put myself before others... I have made decision based on circumstances all the times...
1. going to spring hill - bc it was cheaper, bc it was close, bc my mom did not want me to go where my boyfriend was...
-- Spring Hill turned out to be fun.. met amazing people who are still dear to my heart!!! and love them like my brother or sister!!!
--- met great co workers and an amazing manager who let me grow as even as young as i was.. who helped me follow my dreams and supported me each and every way!
2. moved to bham with Beka to be with Amanda and Ben!
-- saw snow for the first time,
--- followed my dream on becoming a chef
-- met amazing people in culinary school (who taught me how my college years should have gone)
--met amazing co workers- who I still cherish every day
3. moved back to help my Lil brother thru hard times
-- fell to the GAP
-- met more amazing people, but at the same time I have been challenged on who I am and how I am as a person... I have honestly never been in so many different situations that I could not understand how I got there or how one could see it like that... BUT nevertheless, I am ready for another chapter in my life... I am ready to give the world all that I am willing to offer..
4. I AM DOING THIS FOR ME! I UNDERSTAND IT WILL CHANGE SOMETHINGS, BUT AT THE SAME TIME I KNOW IT WILL BRING ME CLOSER TO MY FRIENDS, BECAUSE I WILL BE HAPPIER AND WILL HAVE TIME FOR THEM... I KNOW IT SEEMS CRAZY, THAT AFTER ALL THIS WAITING FOR A SIGN, ASKING PEOPLE TO HELP, AND FINALLY REALIZING THAT ALL I NEEDED WAS THE SECURITY OF MY FRIENDS SUPPORTING ME - I KNOW I CAN DO IT!!!
I LOVE YOU ALL AND THANK YOU FOR TRULY UNDERSTANDING!!!
MI CASA ES SU CASA!!!
LIVE, LAUGH, LOVE
TIF
(ps--> clearly done without caring!!! or internet slang)
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